putting two and two together

its a sappy sappy sappy hearts day.

if people who know me discover the existence of my blog i'm sure they'll be unable to put two and two together... will they ever be able to reconcile how they have come to know me and these sappy sappy posts.

its basically katy perry singing thinking of you- who would have thought she had it in her!

to most people (except maybe for my bffs, among others), i'm a coldhearted biatch without a romantic bone in place. well surprise surprise. i'm a closet romantic.

hmm.. come to think of it, a number of guy friends have sought my advice on how to woo their ladies... then again, that involves creativity and insight on how the female mind works. remember, third person genius.

so today on this sappy sappy day, i'm doubling my efforts to be unaffected when in fact i'm so affected.

for 20 +++ years now, i don't recall that i've ever celebrated it... or have i? i'm 99% sure i've NEVER celebrated it because its a friggin hallmark imposed holiday! hahaha... sorry but i'm one of those people who deem happy hearts day as a form of commercialism. killjoy!

i can even recall my usual response to this fishing question "what are your plans on vday"...my template response "sorry i don't celebrate vday". off the hook without hurting anyone.

speaking of things i have yet to do or experience in this lifetime... here's a quick checklist of what i have yet to experience (at the top of my head).

1. holding hands
im kidding. i had my first and only holding hands with mr. 5 month fling. and up to now, i can vividly picture those few moments.hahaha. he's a touchy person and i wasn't. he was very generous with the hugs and i wasn't the most accommodating recipient. it was an issue for me (how mature right). so hh was a compromise.

2. first kiss
and i'm not talking about the never been kissed movie version ok. i really mean i've never been kissed. never. i'm saving this for my first bf (haha, in that case i may die without experiencing this all together). for a time, i even had virgin cheeks (cheeks were a no gone zone even for my closest guy friends, but alas, one really good guy friend innocently planted one on the cheek when he was saying goodbye, since then i've been more flexible about this).

3. first date
as i've efficiently profiled myself, i've never officially been on a date. i'm scared even with the prospect of saying yes to a date. i tried it once. i agreed to come with him to some fancy concert. he even bought my bff a ticket. three tickets, one for me, one for him and one for my bff. but last minute i chickened out. thank God we are still good friends till now. i think i'm ready for my first real date.i'm just waiting for the right guy to ask the right question (haha of course there are still qualifying words).

4. first bf
certified no boyfriend since birth. i do hope you come into my life this year, i maybe unable to wait for next year (kidding). enough said.

5. first love
oops, am done and over with this. first love equals mr. 5 month fling. yes, i seriously fell in love with mr. 5 month fling (then later found out that i was just one of his many flings. major ouch!karma!hahaha)

i'm keeping my fingers crossed. this could be the year or not. who knows.

*if only mr. dentist was unattached...hahaha... i can flirt with him without a care as to who gets hurt. then i can get my first bf, my first date and my first kiss (in no particular order). i'm kidding.

cheers to love on this sappy day!