you made me thinking

NOTE: im jumping to another topic or post...kinda getting poetic at this point.

you made me thinking.

for the first time in 23 years...someone made me thinking.

you made me thinking.

ive always been a believer of love at first sight.

(gawd even saying that makes me barf..can anything get more cliche than this)

i knew the moment we met. i just knew.

amidst everything that was happening then, i knew.

perhaps i knew even then when i first heard about you.

but i was just plain scared.

i like how things were.

and so i pushed the thoughts at the back of my mind.

but i must admit, even then you made thinking .

you see, ive long decided on my future.

single or at most unmarried but attached.

no kids. absolutely no kids.

not even dreaming up my wedding.

but you made me thinking.

you seriously made me thinking .

in a matter of two meet-ups and a couple of text messages exchanged

texts, most of which i initiated.

all of which was in the context of two friends meeting up again after a long time.

because you just made me thinking.

whether or not something will come out of this

im glad and thankful.

simply because (as my friend aptly puts it) someone's finally pulling me out of my shell again,

whether intentionally or not,

thank you for being that someone.

so before things get more complicated.

most likely by my own doing.

since you are attached (happily i suppose)

and i'm (hopefully) just creating a (temporary) ripple in it.

because as much as you made me thinking

i can't bear to be responsible for turning your world upside down.

even if that would mean having you.

because after all you made me thinking.

if only i had known you a lil earlier.

when what would have only mattered was you and me.

and you may have made me thinking then.

or not.

fate has a funny way of writing our life story.

things happen when they ought to happen.

nonetheless, you made me thinking now.

so let me apologize as early as now

if i may cause undesevred ripple or two.

it may be selfish of me but you just made me thinking.

and i thought it was worth a try.

a risk i would have never taken years ago.

so let me also thank you as early as now

thank you because you simply made me thinking.