days ago i was experiencing my annual christmas jitters, the season when i feel the loneliest.
then i had a conversation with Him, and finally admitted to myself what i felt and wanted.
the classic story of simply submitting yourself to the greatest power there is.
days go by, and i get a pleasant surprise. a delightful surprise that has yet to unravel itself so i can fully appreciate it.
its way too early in the game to be all caught up with the whole deal, but its refreshing to see myself get excited again.
as i said, its a much welcomed channge.
Monday, November 23, 2009
Friday, November 20, 2009
Never been kissed
There's the movie and then there's me. While drew had never been really kissed, i simply have never been kissed.
I had a rather odd dream two nights ago- i got my first official kiss with an even odder choice, mr. fuzzy feeling.
so here's how it went. me and my 2 best gals came over to his house to hang (not that we hang out in reality). we were watching the tely on a bed with a pullout. my other best gal was lying beside mr. fuzzy feeling while i was on the pullout. they were whispering the whole time (i'm not sure what i felt at this point). then we decided to leave. On our way out, his mom and grandmom went in his room. i barely remember this part of the dream. what i do remember is that his mom and grandmom were telling me that it was me... after all these time, it was still me. the other girl was just a bestfriend hahahahaha. drumroll... then the even weirder part, i came down and saw him with his friends (or was it his groupmates?). by the way, he was donning his med uniform!
anywho, he left his friends and handed me white choco flavored reese mini cups (is there such a thing?). he gave me half of the bag's content- about 8 pieces. we ate one piece each and i kissed him. with both mouths filled with chocolate . awkward. after our quick awkward kiss i left and told him i'd think about it. then the dream went to an abrupt end as i finally woke up at 4am
so that's the story of my first kiss, my extremely awkward "dream" kiss.
I had a rather odd dream two nights ago- i got my first official kiss with an even odder choice, mr. fuzzy feeling.
so here's how it went. me and my 2 best gals came over to his house to hang (not that we hang out in reality). we were watching the tely on a bed with a pullout. my other best gal was lying beside mr. fuzzy feeling while i was on the pullout. they were whispering the whole time (i'm not sure what i felt at this point). then we decided to leave. On our way out, his mom and grandmom went in his room. i barely remember this part of the dream. what i do remember is that his mom and grandmom were telling me that it was me... after all these time, it was still me. the other girl was just a bestfriend hahahahaha. drumroll... then the even weirder part, i came down and saw him with his friends (or was it his groupmates?). by the way, he was donning his med uniform!
anywho, he left his friends and handed me white choco flavored reese mini cups (is there such a thing?). he gave me half of the bag's content- about 8 pieces. we ate one piece each and i kissed him. with both mouths filled with chocolate . awkward. after our quick awkward kiss i left and told him i'd think about it. then the dream went to an abrupt end as i finally woke up at 4am
so that's the story of my first kiss, my extremely awkward "dream" kiss.
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